Hesitation, Meditation, Motivation, and Passion

Hesitation, Meditation, Motivation, and Passion…

Do you ever feel the tightness in your chest?  The almost dread, wondering if your creation will be all you want it to be?  The stress and time seems to fly by so much faster than you ever expected?  This is but one part of our life, SL.  Home, friends, family, work, RL….it is always a challenge to balance our needs and our desires.  As I work on changing my patterns this becomes more profound.  When you’re used to running up to the wire for everything, your mind and body seem to become accustomed to that adrenaline – that push to race to the end.  In changing that, it sometimes feel like my mind is rebelling…and when I give in to – “I’ll work on it in the morning”, I’m overcome with elation.  Like the feeling I got as a child when school released for summer.  You know what follows?  Stress and rushing to meet my deadlines, and sometimes I have to drop ideas for the time so that I can finish what I need to.  It’s not easy, retraining habits I’ve had long before I embraced the world of dance here in SL.  I know it will be worth it, and on the journey I’m realizing some of my “coping” mechanisms, or avoidance mechanisms and beginning to see them for what they are.  Marketplace is probably the biggest of them all for me.  I am grateful, however, that I’m not too much of a shopaholic RL (except when I found the amazing opportunities to buy used books online, and Amazon daily deals – UPS knew me very very well for a while).

Yep, I fall off the horse quite a bit still – trying to plan and work ahead but I am really starting to see a difference in some things, and will continue to spread that to my dance creations.  Giving up isn’t the answer and I know that.  Falling back into my bad habits isn’t the answer.  Balance, planning, peace, meditation, and doing are my answers.

One of my daily goals?  Meditation – to rebalance, regroup, calm me, and believe in myself.  My head spins – constantly, with thoughts, ideas, visions, solutions.  It’s tiring sometimes and stillness is important.  The video here may be one of the best meditations I’ve ever followed.  Or maybe it’s what I need at the moment and clicks, or maybe I’m very open to it at the moment…or maybe….

I can feel the cool air stir along my skin as the fan spins above me, just as I felt the warmth this morning as I walked outside barefoot to watch the chickens and rabbits calmly go about their ways.  I feel calm and inspired, connected.

Stop, perhaps, and take a moment.  Where does your balance come from?  Keeps your passion and inspiration flowing…..your candle burning.

A very happy Father’s Day to all the fathers out there.

Walk your path – embrace your light, and be you.  For always and ever.
~ Eva



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Meditation, Mental Blocks, and Marshmallows

I could feel it slipping up on me, the procrastination, feeling tired, like I was walking through sludge.  Aiming to break through my walls of procrastination and remaining stagnant, I thought hmm….what would help.  This was the first time I’d meditated to the practitioner in this video, and I must say I could feel the sludge sliding away and feel light and relaxed.  I’m an avid believer in meditation clearing the mind and rebalancing the body – all matter being made of energy.  I’m also reading a book about energy strands, which in some ways a bit surprising, and in others – not at all.

May you all have a day of balance and joy, and even a marshmallow or two.  Hot chocolate with marshmallows for an evening dessert treat is another soothing mechanism for me at times.

Breathe deep, release it slowly, and live in the sunlight
~ Eva

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Opening My Eyes

eyes of the galaxy

“In the face of great challenges, you can choose to live reactively as a victim, or choose to proactively take control, with awareness and accountability.”

― Isaac LidskyEyes Wide Open: Overcoming Obstacles and Recognizing Opportunities in a World That Can’t See Clearly



Credits – I’m not a creator of these items, nor wish to sell anything – just giving credit where credit is due for the beautiful artwork.



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See Me, Feel Me: Raw Intensity and Art

See Me, Feel Me.  A dance performance, generally RL, that touched me in some way, but I won’t go into detail how.  That’s for you to feel, to see, to listen for yourself.  I watch dance performances in SL, and in RL through videos.  I sink deep into them, how do I feel, how do I react to it, can I feel the movement, does it inspire me, or do I dislike it.  In turn, I believe it expands my own mind and creativity.

I debated posting this video.  Such an intense subject, I shied away…but I couldn’t help but be drawn back.  The art, the message, the emotion captured me, spoke to me.  I share this not as a statement to the message of the dance – but BECAUSE of the dance.  Because of the expression, and the medium, it’s uniqueness.

I can’t put into words how this makes me feel, what I see… and I won’t.  I share with you so that you may experience it for yourself, the depths of it, and form your own impressions.

What do you see?

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Workshop Ideas? What would you like to learn?

insanity in danceWhat would you be interested in learning?

I like insanity, I love teaching, I adore dance – and what better way to put them all together than by having workshops?  I’ve been tossing around ideas for adding a new topic here and there – expanding horizons, going where no man has gone before!  (Well, not really but it sounded dramatic.)

I’d love to know what people are interested in coming together and learning.  For me, it’s refreshing something I know, digging into the nooks and crannies as I prepare, sharing this with others and learning from them in turn.  The incredible moments when hesitation becomes inspiration and the first steps to excitement, those are the ultimate reward.  It is also seeing my own skills and abilities grow as I teach and share with others.  For those who have come to my workshops, do you get that feeling?  Anything I can do better?  I often make adjustments based on feedback or the response I sense during the workshop, working on balancing fun with structure and ways to present that engage others.

wonka goingFeel free to comment here or facebook, send me a notecard, or I’m adding suggestion boxes in each workshop area at Harleyquin.  I really do want to know. 🙂

Happy dancing!

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Today: June 12th ~ Peace, Love, Forgiveness

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Today: June 12th ~ Peace, Love, Forgiveness

Background:   Updated challenge for myself

Capture a special moment each day, something different, not for a nice photo but something that inspires or invokes feelings of creativity, peace, passion.  To help keep me moving forward, working past challenges and to discourage me from hiding in my protective shell.

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Tea, where joy hides, and bubbles

Brb…making tea.  Back, glass cup in hand.  As my tea steeps in my very cool tea infuser cup, I look at the package for this blend.  “Energize.  Believe in yourself & be unstoppable.”  That’s quite a claim for an herbal tea blend.  As I glance out the window at yet another dark and rainy day, a little “unstoppable” would be a good thing.

paint your dreams

So, I’m falling a bit behind on my dance creations and it makes me uncomfortable – or does shaking up how I’ve always done things make me uncomfortable?  Or was it an uncomfortable situation yesterday that shook my confidence?  No one else may have noticed, but what if they did?  The truth is, all of us have pieces of ourselves that we hide, bury – because we need to, for our own sanity.  To let go for a little while, sometimes to be snapped right back into it and our safe bubble shattered for that moment in time.

Then, we breathe.  A deep breath.  We remind ourselves that its ok.  That what was isn’t anymore.  That we are safe.  And loved.  That we do good things and can be our self, embrace what’s inside.  That we are stronger than we know – so much stronger.

silence the voiceAs I breathe and study the picture above, the words “I AM ME” roll through my head.  I choose do to what I love.  Create what I feel.  Trust and believe in just this, and all will fall into place.  Perhaps not immediately, but over time…one step at a time.  Even the tiniest of steps are a movement forward to whatever you desire.  Sometimes I wish there was a fairy that would clear away the clutter, the endless train of things standing in my way…but then I realize, what stands in the way the most is my own self, not taking those baby steps.  That inner voice saying “this is too hard…it will never happen…you can’t do this”.

It is a brave thing to face the turmoil inside.  The inner demons, the past memories, fears and doubts, and overcome them.  It is a brave thing to challenge the status quo and take those first steps, small as they might be.  It is brave, and right, to see yourself as Strong.  Powerful.  Beautiful.  Intelligent.  Creative.  To be forgiving of yourself.

This is a mere hiccup in this moment, as new things are aligning – bringing with it a bit of discomfort and fear of the unknown.  No one can do it for you.  It has to be you.

youve changed

I like this Twitter post by Alicia Keys:

“If those you are with don’t encourage the change and growth in you.. maybe they aren’t the ones for you! Keep shining 💞🌈 “



In the course of things, I’ve also started working on getting back into better habits.  I find that I seem to dehydrate easily – forget to drink water (especially when focused/creating) and this makes me tired, moody, and unable to concentrate.

Another step is watching Ted videos, which I used to do regularly – inspirational, thought provoking, beautiful.  I have one to share with you today, and upon watching it I realize that the spaces where I spend the most time RL are bland like those demonstrated.  That adds something to consider…how much does the environment around you effect your emotions and creativity?

I’m not quite sure I feel unstoppable, but I do feel more energized and ready to keep taking those steps.  I can silence that negative inner voice in my head, do what I enjoy to the most of my ability and celebrate that.  Isn’t that the way it should be?

Blessed be 💞
~ Eva


Credits – I’m not a creator of these items, nor wish to sell anything – just giving credit where credit is due for the beautiful artwork.
Paint your dreams: https://www.etsy.com/au/listing/179183086/art-quotes-dance-quotes-inspirational
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