Facets and Rabbit Holes

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As a seasoned and passionate dancer in SL, I freely share and support others in their own dance journeys.  My beliefs:  question everything, learn from everything, take from it what you will and do it your own way.  Have many teachers, no one is a master, no one knows “THE WAY”.  I teach based on what I know – my own foundation, what I have learned, my own ways – but they are not the only ways.  Enjoy the ride, speak from the soul and create art with your dance.  We are all always learning, always growing.  Release the music from within…your way.  ~ Eva

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There is no going back…

In moments of stillness…sometimes I ache for the past.  The smiles, the laughter.  Simpler times.  Within my mind I return to those moments, becoming one with them again…or at least the pieces that I envision.  I feel during these moments.  Butterflies flutter within.

I find these moments come on stronger, faster, when my world feels out of control, when I feel out of sorts.  It is a safe place, my memories, where my mind chooses what to recall.  Safe, so it seems, when in reality it is a silently dangerous place, one that reminds me of the past until I ache to return.

There is no going back.  There is no recapturing those moments.  I am not the same person I was yesterday, last month, and especially not a year ago.  That is evolution of mind and spirit, just as it should be.  The memories?  A highlight reel of yesteryear, presented in the format of original film – the picture hazy and shadowed around the edges.

It is the people I think of most, who changed my life in their own way.  Everyone you meet touches you in a way, some more than others.  There is no going back.  Perhaps they have evolved, just as they should.  Perhaps they have left the world of SL.  Perhaps they closed the current chapter and started a new story – a new avatar, and a new circle.  Perhaps they are no longer amoung us, having risen from this mortal realm.

It is a dangerous thing, aching for the past, for it prevents us from moving on into what is yet to be.  I remind myself that there will be new amazing experiences and memories to make.  It is the letting go that is so very hard at times, especially when I feel alone.  Memories are but a pale ghost of the arms which once held me safe and close.

I shake myself, and repeat…there is no going back.

There is me.  There is my own path.  There is a new beginning, each and every day.

Words have power when spoken.  Those that have touched my life and moved on will never see this, but may the universe communicate my message in its own way.  Thank you for being part of my world, for all that we shared, and for all I learned.  You will never be forgotten.  By being part of your world, I was changed, and you will always be in my memories even as I step forward.

There is no going back.

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The Art of Moving People

In this world we have the opportunity to explore, to be, to find outlets that may not be open to us in RL.  While there are differences in what we can do – limitations, this doesn’t take away the core of the art or the telling of our own stories in our own way.

Watch, feel, and see…no matter our medium, it is the same.  May you be as inspired and moved as I am.  Tell your story through motion.

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Kindness, Acceptance, and Understanding

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Not a poem I have written, but one that speaks to me on this day and also inspires.

Many know me as good natured, a soft touch, and a large heart.  I give all I am to others to support them, at times to my own detriment.  I have my own inner struggles, some I have shared, some I won’t.  I believe that each one of us is in this world for a reason, whatever it may be.  For some, a sense of normalcy we don’t have in RL, a place of peace in a world of chaos, to feel “normal”, accepted, to explore, to be our true selves, to seek like minded individuals when it feels that no one else sees the world as we do, to not feel alone.

In our world of Second Life, I believe this statement with my whole heart:

“Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about.
Be kind.  Always.”

Patience.  Kindness.  Understanding.  Acceptance.  If we can’t find these in this world, where can we ever hope to find them?  Speak with kindness.  Listen with understanding.  Be patient with others.  Accept others for who they are, even if we don’t understand.

“Let there be peace on Earth, and let it begin with me.”

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100 word stories…grime and unfortunate

This is my second foray into 100 word stories, where you are challenged to write a story using specific words and limited to only 100.  This week is two:  Mug, Unfortunate, Global, Grime, Elephant, Splat, Dread.  I am not a writer but am unexpectedly finding this to be mentally stimulating and relaxing at the same time.  (Never said I was normal, did I?)   As I write, I find I’m doing it in a sing-songy voice…and now that’s even how I’m talking in my head…^^

A woman of many words becomes one of few.  This is mine…

Her posture echoed the age of the building rather than her youthful years of twenty-two. Gilted gold frames had long given way to sticky grime as glorious carpets grew threadbare in the once glamorous hotel, now simply rooms rent by the week.

I gazed from my perch and studied her shambling walk.  Unseeing eyes turned toward mine.

I beheld the shell of a woman who’d been queen of her world, lording over others and demanding admiration from all in her presence.  It was no more, the gilted gold revealing the lead underneath.

Unfortunate?  No, for ye reap what ye sow.

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Anxiety, Inner Peace, and Creation

There are some days you just want to roll back into bed before 9 am, and today was most definitely one of those days.  Unexpected interactions, surprise disappearances, and the pressure we put on ourselves is this horrid concoction for anxiety – not that it needs any help.  I, like many, every day face controlling anxiety, depression, and panic attacks.  For me, I know it’s not rational, the thoughts and worries that drown out everything else.  Every day I’m aware of the triggers coupled with other factors that can begin a spiral – lack of motivation, lack of creativity, unable to focus, hide under my rock, tiredness.  This is NOT me, and it does NOT make me weak.

For me, it is a constant flow of redirecting energy, rebalancing, and opening to inner peace within.  Being confident or just rolling with the flow and embracing the moment.  If you’ve heard me DJ – you’ve definitely heard me living in the moment!

Often I pour this into my dance – all of it.  I believe that even within dance in SL, energy can be expressed.  In the creation itself, and also from the performers on the stage.  There is true magic there.  Those that dance with me are so much more than someone who sits on a pad.  It is a connection, a shared moment together, often with playful banter and some ‘loosening up’.  Letting go of everything else except for that moment.  Trust.

Meditation for me is also a method for channeling energy and reducing stress.  Redirection.  Below is one that speaks to me, and perhaps others.

Be who you are, without regret, without asking permission, without doubts.  You do not lack anything, even though at times you may feel that way – or others may even tell you that you do.  Believing in yourself is one of the most powerful acts of kindness you could ever perform and from this can stem so many incredible things.

Your colors, your canvas, your choice, your moments.  Own it.
~ Eva

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Just Breathe

I believe it is passion that inspires creativity, no matter what our medium.  Whether it is dance, poetry, or computer coding.  As I woke this morning with the edges of a headache after yesterday’s escapade I wondered why we can be so hard on ourselves sometimes – my head swirling with things that need to be done.   When did creating become a to do list for me?  When did the doubts come trooping in like an army of ants during a summer picnic?  When did I stop taking a moment to breathe?  A friend recently said to me, “if you are too busy to meditate, you are too busy”.

You are perfect just as you are.  All will continue to flow, rising and falling like the ocean waves.  Storms will swell and seas will calm.  You are stronger and so much more than you know.  Be, breathe, and smile…just because.

May you feel the sun shine on your face and music fill your soul.  Today is a new day and a new beginning.  ~ namaste. ❤

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See Me, Feel Me: Gimme some hip hop and contrast

See Me, Feel Me.  A dance performance, generally RL, that touched me in some way, but I won’t go into detail how.  That’s for you to feel, to see, to listen for yourself.  I watch dance performances in SL, and in RL through videos.  I sink deep into them, how do I feel, how do I react to it, can I feel the movement, does it inspire me, or do I dislike it.  In turn, I believe it expands my own mind and creativity.

Definitely not in a contemporary style mood today.  Makes me wonder, would I have slipped into lyrical dance?  Time for change, perhaps?

What do you see?

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