Please Stand By…memory refresh in progress
It feels good to be home again after a week away. I live in the South, sometimes referred to as the screen door to hell because of the heat but I was slammed with how oppressive it was way up in Northwestern New York!
Overall it was a great trip, but I did miss home – my routines, knowing where everything is, my comfortable bed…
The best thing about the trip – and the long drive? Inspiration and a reset of thoughts. Sometimes my thoughts get so jumbled. I may have everything lined up and keep telling myself…do this…do this…do this. It’s good to stop sometimes and ask “why am I doing this? why do I do it this way?”. I am on a path to self discovery, satisfaction, and growth. In some ways it’s never ending, but slowly I find what inspires me, motivates me, what I enjoy most. Most importantly I learn the triggers to my anxiety and methods to cope with it. Slowly I learn how to balance my need for a lone time and my need to spend time with friends, keeping those relationships strong. It was a bit unplanned, but I had an amazing time finding small items for my longest and dearest friend in SL to add to her package. Didn’t make it to FedEx before I left, but will tomorrow after replacing the three bags of gourmet chocolate I left in NY…
While away, my brain slowed down a bit. I went to an amazing glass museum and still feel so inspired by the art I saw. I even created two pieces myself while I was there and did a lot of introspection during quiet moments. I can’t be everything to everyone, no one can. But what I love, what I enjoy most, I can focus on, do my best, and share that with others. I have a nurturing soul and a soft heart, easily hurt and at times easily taken advantage of. I have always poured my heart into what I love, what I’m fully engaged in. This is a strength I believe. A weakness? Having my thumb in too many pies. This I have done my whole life, especially in RL work. At times, even in this world I have done the same but through various transitions things are just about the way they should be.
I haven’t read this book in a while and should again. The Four Agreements.
This…and slow and steady win the race. Those are my mottoes for the upcoming days and weeks.
What is your motto? Perhaps even a theme song for the upcoming days?
So glad to be home again.